This is the biggest struggle in my life. Every day I drop my kiddos off at daycare with the thought of “am I doing the right thing”?  I am leaving the two most important things in my life, in the hands of someone else. All day I wonder…are they happy? Do they wonder where I’m at? Are they ok?

Not only is it the time that I spend away from them, but all the things I forget or just don’t have time to do. I feel guilty that Ella doesn’t have homemade cupcakes for pre school snack, or on most days their socks don’t match because I don’t have that extra 30 seconds when were trying to run out the door to find the matching one, or forgetting her show and tell toy that starts with the letter T, forgetting the Valentines party at school and making terrible homemade cards at 11 pm. I have the local Pizza Ranch on speed dial and have accumulated more reward points there in the last year than I would ever care to admit. It’s constant guilt, but then I have to remind myself…. what’s the most important thing for a child.

LOVE

And I know they are SO fully surrounded by love, by not only me but all the people that are around them. They have a roof over their head, food to eat, and more toys than two kids know what to do with. They are lucky.

And tonight as I lay rocking my youngest daughter to sleep I kept thinking it again….am I doing the right thing? And so deep down I know the answer is YES. I want my two little girls to be able to see a mom thats happy, determined, smart, caring and can do absolutely anything that she sets her mind to. They say the best way to teach your kids is to show them, and so I am.